Today I tried AGAIN to talk with my mother...
and AGAIN she was not allowed to talk with me...
I'm just wondering... how can someone believe in a God who orders a mother to hate her child,
or a sister to cut all contacts with her sister who was only kind with her....
or a father to talk all the time about his biggest wish to kill his daughter only because she started to think logically and freely..
What kind of God is this one who wants us to hate and hate and hate...
No.. this is something not for me..
I was learned to hate since i came to the life...but I don't want to do that anymore...
I have big love to every single person on the earth.. whatever his religion, color or race...
Mohammad said that we are the best ever..
we are not allowed to love any another people.. otherwise we will go to the hell with them..
BUT we have to show them the beautiful faces until we become strong enough to make them our slaves..
because Allah did choose us and only us to live good and everyone else is not even counted with human-beings...
in the same time women are just "somethings" made for men's joy... and not more then things...
we hide women with lots of cloths because they are just bodies...
Mohammad is holy even more then Allah himself...
and talking one word about him is an enough reason to be killed immediately...
but who is Mohammad? He is someone who was married with a 9 years old girl..
and started to "touch" her when she was only 6...
Mohammad is the man who killed 800 jews in one day,
and got their money, everything they owned.. and... their women...
and had sex with Safia in this day after he killed her father, brother and her husband...
and we have to believe them when they say that she fell in love with him after all what he did...
we have to believe them when they say that Mohammad was sent from God and he is the best man ever...
Mohammad who was busy all his life only with having more women, and fighting wars...
Since i came to the life, I had been taught to love Mohammad... without asking why or even think about it...
in every breath we give we keep saying again and again "God bless u Mohammad" and we never ask why...
All my fault was that i start to ask, wonder and the biggest sin is that I start to think and search...
I want to be free... i want to feel my beauty... i want to run.. dance... laugh and cry..
I want to say to everybody "I love you" when i feel it...
I want my daughter to feel clever, strong, worthy and to feel that she can do whatever she wants..
I want to my son to be a strong gentleman who respects women and encourages his girl to be better and higher in her work and life without being scared from it..
and i got it... i got my freedom..
but the bill was very high... all my family, friends and mamma..
but... I won myself.. and i became a human being who belongs to the nature and looks like it...
YOU KNOW WHAT, Allah!!!!!
Nothing can force me to be subjected to you again!! Not even... MAMMA...
Sofia